Things going on in my life

I just realized that I had not updated here after surgery.

Sorry.

Surgery lasted about an hour. All I know is the doc found adhesions aka internal scar tissue and removed it. Waiting for my surgeons report. Gonna call my nurse Amy tomorrow or Wednesday to see if the report is in the computer.

No longer having the upper left quadrant pain any more. Praise Jesus. Just major soreness all over my tummy. Surgeon had to make 4 separate incisions and could not do just belly button surgery which I assume was due to previous scar tissue from the Gall bladder removal surgery I had over 10 years ago.

I have had some severe nausea and dry heaves since surgery.

Diarrhea still exists. UGH!

I am sleeping much better. Maybe too much sleep. Hypersomnia!

Rosie and I go for Mammograms tomorrow and then to see Dr Melling on Wednesday.

I am gonna discuss my depression and fibromylagia pain with him. I have stopped lyrica and abilify over the past 2 months. Weaned myself off them slowly. I am still taking Cymbalta and Buspar. Mood swings are back. I hate being so moody.

I am blessed to have lost 52 lbs since Roux-en-Y surgery but I should have lost double that by now so hence I feel like it has failed me and/or I am a failure. Since January 2009 I have lost over 95-105 lbs depending on who scales I am on.

Not sure why I have lost so little. Have not lost much since the last of January. Up and down the same 5-10 lbs. So frustrating to me.

I am gonna have Dr Langton, my endocrinologist check my metabolism and my cortisol levels. Also need to recheck my hormone levels and my thyroid. PCOS? Cushings?

I am trying to be more extroverted and friendlier. It is so difficult. Always worried in saying something stupid or being laughed at. Been shy ever since I can remember. Praying to become more relaxed with myself and with others. Social Anxiety Sucks!

My sugar went to 581 yesterday and is still hovering near 200 or so. Only culprit we can think that may have caused it is that Dad stopped and got me to large glasses of UNSWEETENED Ice Tea from a convenience store… I put sugar free Equal, Splenda and Sweet-n-low in it without tasting it before hand. I am THINKING it may have been SWEET Tea!!! Nothing else should have cause my sugar to skyrocket like that! From now on I will taste before sweetening it just to be certain. I hate high glucose episodes…. Make me feel so terrible.

Sitting here waiting for John to come online to chat. Should be here within the hour. Can’t wait to see him. He keeps me sane. I love that silver foxy devil!

Thanks Jesus for all the wonderful blessings you have bestowed on me. Help me overcome this feeling of failure. I wanna succeed in life.

~GOD BLESS,

Angela

~Angela~ Update on Moi'

Doing so-so.

My sugar has been everywhere from 90 to 487 this week. That in itself is draining.

Slept around 6 hours last night. Was up till 6 am though

Having a wonderful time getting closer to my baby Love John. He is the greatest. A few times in the past week he has had on his business attire and looking so debonair and HOT… which he always does but a dress shirt is so lovely on him. Once this week he had on a white linen casual shirt.. unbuttoned a lil.. Thought I was gonna faint with desire!

I am now on Buspar, Lyrica, Cymbalta and Trazodone for my Fibromylagia, Neuropahy, Social Anxiety,Insomnia and Depression. I also take Novolog Insulin through my insulin pump. Plus Atenolol for my heart rate. Synthroid for my Thyroid. Glypizide for my diabetes. Aygestin for my Endometrial Hyperplasia. Hormone. Plus over 10 vitamins daily. Some days the vitamins make me so nauseous… But I need them.

My hair is fill falling out by the handfuls. I swear I am gonna end up bald before it levels out. Good Thing is that my hair is coming back in quickly. My Hypothyroid is the main culprit. That should get better soon as my synthroid dosage was lowered.

Been having weird legs craps. Not normal calf ones.. these are in the side of my leg above my ankle. Ugh.. So painful.

I had gained 5 lbs. I have lost 2.8 of those lbs this week. Watching my carb intake helps tremendously.

Ate 1/4th cup of homemade spaghetti and meat sauce for supper and it made me ill.

I haven’s had upper left quadrant stomach pain since I stopped the pre-made protein shakes. THANK GOD I figured out what was causing it.

My Irritable Bowel probs comes and goes. Had more than a few accidents while I was sleeping this past month. UGH. What a mess. Some days all I have is diarrhea and others constipation. Not pleasant in the least.

Since I have been losing hair and had to Cut it short I ordered a HUMAN HAIR Wig.. Should be here on Monday. Can’t wait to have hair flowing down my back again. Now just hope I can get my hair to match the wig perfectly. I ordered a 3/4 wig which means my front hair will go over the wig and blend. I use to wear wigs all the time about 16 years ago. Love being able to change my style often. I bore easily.

My love and Prayers to Bret, His family, friends, and fans.

Having lots of visitors from Arizona, Pennsylvania, and Nebraska…. Makes me wonder if it is Bret’s family since that is where he and his family members reside. Hmmmm…. Curious.

We (Dad, Rosie and I) bought more domain websites this week. My family now owns 48 websites. Now just getting them all up and running. Wish us luck!

Excited about Google RUMORED Tablet which is like the Ipad but better. Can’t wait for more news on it. I want one!

Wondering if I have another UTI. My sugar has been swinging wildly and it is often due to an UTI. Seemsl ike I am urinating too much and too often. I have lab work on my Kidneys on Tuesday so I guess we will find out then.

Will prolly be going grocery shopping tomorrow. Pray that I don’t have a panic attack.. which I often do!

Was gonna go shower but just realized it is 3:45 AM!

I have hair oil on … slept it in last night and looks like I will sleep in it tonight. Using jojoba oil, sweet almond oil with Lemon essential oils for a nice scent. My scalp is so itchy lately. Feels like I have salt grains and sores in it, Sure it is related to my hypothyroid.

I am off to bed.

I send all my love, prayers, and blessings to all who read this.

The Lord Jesus Christ Loves you.

God Bless,

Angela

~Angela~ My moods were much more stable today. PTL!

Had a much better day today than I had in over a week. Haven’t cried.. yet!

Had a nice time with John.

So glad Bret is doing better BUT very concerned about him going back on tour in a month or so. He needs rest so I pray that he re-considers the tour and takes a very long hiatus and gets some much needed and deserved rest, relaxation and recuperation.

My vision is not as blurry today. Sugars have been well. Under 180 all day. That truly helps my moods!

Gonna stay home tomorrow and plan on going shopping on Friday. Needing groceries and things.

This website has seen an increase in traffic. I normally get around 100-300 hits daily. For the last few days…. it has jumped incredibly to 2500-3000 hits daily. Over 30,000 page views in a week. Mainly due to my posting in regards to Bret Michaels.

Having lots of hits from Arizona… that is where Bret lives.

Gonna start posting Bret Michaels News on http://www.Bret-Michaels.com and posting ONLY links to the articles here. No actual articles. Trying to restore some normalcy to this site.

Got a tweet from Bret’s friend and collaborator Shane. Promised to tell Bret that Rosie and I were praying for him and his family.

Head from one of Bret’s former classmates. We both agree Bret needs to be closer to the Lord and praying that God will lead someone to witness to him… and that he accepts Jesus as his Lord and Savior.

It is 4:15 am and I had better be heading to bed soon. Gonna grab me a spoon of peanut butter and go to bed.

I surrender my life to Jesus and ask for forgiveness. I pray that You Dear Sweet Precious Lord will guide me and Help me be a better Christian. Some me the way. Take my hand and instruct me on which road I should travel. Use me as You see fit. Lead my husband to me and I to him. Give us both patience and let us both keep the faith.

Good Night,

Love and Prayers,

Angela

~Angela~ Almost 3 am...Worried About Bret!

I am so worried about Bret Michaels and his girls Raine and Jorja.

May the Good Lord Jesus Christ be with Bret, His girls, Parents, Sisters, Family, Friends and Fans.

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Lord guide the doctors and nurses taking care of Bret and let Bret recover 100 % from all of this.

I pray that Bret will take better care of himself and this is a wakeup call to do so.

God you know how much Bret and his music has meant to me through all these years.

Please watch over him. Bless him. Protect him. Heal him. Save him.

I really wish I still worked for Bret.. gave that up 11 years ago due to my declining health. I was the webmaster of his official site. He and Kristi Lynn Gibson saw some of my web designs and asked me to design BretMichaels.com

After giving up my webmaster position with Mr Michaels it took many years for my diagnosis but I discovered I had Fibromyalgia. Coupled with me being a type 1 diabetic and suffering from being Bipolar. More depression than mania. On top of severe social anxiety. UGH… I pray to have more confidence and self esteem.

I had gastric bypass on Sept 14th 2009 and in the last 365 days I have lost 100 lbs!

Been 16 years since I have even dated! 16 years! I pray that I can finally have enough confidence to allow a man into my life.

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I have NOT even went to see Bret or Poison since 1994 due to my nerves!

I plan on seeing Bret Michaels on tour as soon as he is able to tour again.

I LOVE YA BRET!

GET WELL SOON!

~Angela

~Angela~ 4:30 am

I am still awake. About to attempt to go to sleep.

Had a so-so day. Went to Walmart and got some seeds for our garden.

Ate at Wendys.

I was a bad lil gal and stopped at Dunkin Donuts. First time in over 10 years. Had 2 donuts…. Sugar skyrocketed to 400. Now it is back to normal.Will do better tomorrow.

Prayers sent to my cousin Brandy. Love ya and I hope to talk to you soon.

HAd a nice time with John as I always do. Baby Love is the best.

Been working on a new website. I now own 24 domains.

Have about 1/3rd operational.

Been so hyper today and now I am wore out.

Prayers to Bret for a speedy Recovery.

Got a headache. Abilify does that. Hope that as it gets in my system that I will no longer be as hyper and that I have no headaches.

Poor baby John… he has had itchy gritty eyes the past few days. Has been so bad he could not wear his contacts. He sees his doc tomorrow in regards to his breathing probs. All nasal. Pray he slept well tonight. He didn’t sleep well the night before due to him being worried about me. His breathing probs didnt help matters.

Told him from now on that

I would Breathe for him

I pray to feel his manly embrace as I doze off into Dreamland tonight.

I am off to bed.

Love and Prayers to all,

Angela

~Angela~ My Weekend

Spent the day in Pigeon Forge. Went to the Great Smokies Flea Market. Ate at Red Lobster.

Wore a short dress for the first time in over 15 years. Looking amazing.. if I do say so myself!

Leopard Sundress with Black KneeHigh boots.

Opi Red on my finger and toe nails.

Really loving my adorably sassy flaming red long layered bob.

Planning on getting the new Ipad soon! YAY!

Ordered clothes from www.Torrid.com Shoes from www.6PM.com and www.ShoeBuy.com

Before Gastric Bypass I wore a size 9 WW and I now wear a size 6.5 C

Started Abilify again. This time I split the 2 mg pill in half. So I am on 1 mg.

Very fatigued….Having lots of aches and pains and heading to bed soon.

Sending love and Prayers to John.

~Angela

~Angela~ Abilify and Seroquel are Devils

In the past 2 weeks I have stopped and started abilify and seroquel.

Abilify made me a hyper maniac and I only slept 3 hours daily.

Now Seroquel has did the opposite. Been almost 48 hours since I had half a dosage and I am STILL so drowsy that I can’t keep my eyes open. All I wanna do is sleep.

Is there a middle ground???

Gonna continue to pray that I can get my moods under control without any additional medications. These new pills just are not good for me.

I hate that the insurance company has paid so much money and I have 2/3rds a bottle of these 2 costly pills left over. Gonna destroy them.

~Angela

~Angela~ Seroquel New Med For Depression and Bipolar

Started seroquel this week and it makes me sleep like a babe at night… BUT also causes late afternoon drowsiness. I napped a few hours yesterday afternoon. Doing my best to stay awake this afternoon… eyes are heavy….Zzzzzzzzzzzz….

~Angela

~Angela~ Stopped Abilify. Starting Seroquel.

Doc Melling changed me from Abilify to Seroquel. Seroquel is for Bipolar. Depression. Mania. Seroquel is also suppose to help me sleep. Gonna be taking my first dosage and heading to bed shortly.

~Angela

~Angela~ Not feeling well...

Not sleeping.

Having tummy probs.

Worried about Rosie. She sees Dr Melling at 3:30 tomorrow. Hope to know more then.

Mind is cluttered.

I did 5 loads of laundry today.

Cleaned my bedroom.

It really wore me out. I tire so easily.

Chatted with John. Such an adorable and adoring man, BLESSED

Got my new insulin pump set up and running.

I lost an additional pound. Now 98 lbs now.

Sending my thoughts and prayers to the miners and their families in West Virginia

Heading to bed now.

Pray that i can sleep.

~Angela

So-So

Had a so-so day. Stomach not as bad as it has been.. but still painful.

Nerves are a wreck still.

Had a lovely evening with John. He is the best.

Going to see Alice in Wonderland tomorrow… at least it is planned.

Happy 69th Birthday Daddy.

3 am equals bedtime….. after I read the online news.

Fibromyagia, Stomach, Abilify

Woke up with my shoulders and arms aching.

Not feeling well at all.

Having upper left quadrant stomach pain again.

Had severe diarrhea yesterday and into the night and I had no Dairy products.

Gonna call Howard’s Pharmacy to see if Abilify has been approved. I am not hopeful since it is a Friday.

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~Angela~ My moods were much more stable today. PTL!

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